A step in a new direction

A lot has been going on these past few weeks and I am finally able to step back and take a deep breath. With a few encouraging words from true friends I have decided to finally take the steps I need to start venturing out on the photography path. It is not going to be some lucrative business and I don't expect to get rich from it but it is something I love to do and apparently others see it too. I am so excited about the future.

What a crazy week it has been

Last friday I felt very weird pulling up to the hospital knowing I was going in for surgery. Last time I pulled up to the hospital for surgery I was pregnant with Natalie and knew I was coming home with my sweet angel in return. This time was different. I thought I might feel nervous sitting there in day surgery waiting for them to come and get me but strangely I felt a sense of calm. The only problem I had was the almost 2 hour wait for everything to be final and the nurse to come by with the hospital bed and tell me to hop on so we can go upstairs. It felt strange because that morning I was not in pain and here I am walking over and getting on the bed to be wheeled upstairs and then laying there waiting for anesthesia to come run my IV and epidural. I remember being taken nito the OR and hearing everyone talking to me and then I awoke in the recovery room. I am trying to take it slow and keep my pain levels down with medication but I want so bad to get back into my old routine. I am not allowed to drive or lift anything heavy for 2 weeks and I thank God everyday for all the support I am receiving from friends and family. Natalie is also ready for our routine to fall back into place. This morning we were both overjoyed when we got to wake up and sit on the couch eating pop-tarts and watch cartoons. She had a smile from ear to ear and that made me smile too. Last night I made it to meet the teacher at Passmore. Olivia was so excited to go and I wanted to be there for her so I slowly made my way through the school with her. I am glad that the surgery went smooth and ready for my life to get back to normal.

Surgery is in my future

I went back on monday for a follow-up ultrasound to see if this cyst has gotten any smaller. Of course it hasnot and my doctor scheduled me to go in on August 14th to have it removed. I am so thankful for everyone who has offered to help. My mother unknowingly took the 14th off from work to have some "me" time and has now offered to watch the kiddos while Bobby takes me to have surgery. Sheila has offered up her house for me to stay at until I can get up the stairs to our apartment and has offered the services of her two teenagers to help me take care of the kids until I am recovered enough to do it alone. The kids would have offered anyway they are like my siblings and I love them so much. Hopefully after next friday things can go back to the way they were before and I can get rid of this pain.